Is it heaven or hell???

I forgot.

His party was soooo sweet. the table was set, each child had a cookie to decorate, smush, or eat. Their choice. Capri Suns for all,  a Valentine's Mailbox for each kid and candy. Oh the candy. Pink & red hearts, white paper doilys, toys and love. So much love in that classroom, between everyone. Little Man Loves going to school. I can see it in his eyes & the happy noises he makes when I ask him about it. 

It doesnt make it any easier though when the realization slaps me with the fact that he is the most disabled child in the room. Physically and (as far as can be told) mentally. Sometimes hell can be cleverly disguised with red hearts,pink icing and candy.

I don't like this dark place I'm in.